Huang Xiaoming is one of China's highest-paid actors but what people don't know is that he suffered several years of depression.
The 38-year-old battled depression before his breakthrough role in 2013's American Dreams in China, reports Jayne Stars.
“I didn’t think I’d be able to do the role justice,” said Xiaoming, referring to his role as Hui Man-keung in the 2007 Chinese adaptation of the famous 1980 Hong Kong television drama, The Bund <上海灘>. “I knew I wouldn’t be able to surpass Chow Yun-fat (周潤發). I was in so much pressure. Filming took nearly half a year too. I didn’t socialize with anyone. I just stood there and stared blankly into space.”
He also shared how he felt after singing "One World One Dream", one of the theme songs for the Beijing Olympics back in 2008.
His poor English pronunciation made him a laughing stock among netizens and he couldn't even keep his head up or look people straight in the eye after that.
He was afraid that they would laugh at him.
Fortunately, he took steps to improve and recover from his crippling anxiety and depression:
“I realized I couldn’t live like this any longer.
“I went to the doctor and they prescribed me some medicine. I had to get through this.
"But I did not rely on medication in the end.
"I lessened my workload.
"I refused to read the news or go on Weibo. I spent more time with my family and friends.
"They helped me get through this.
"It wasn’t until after I won awards for American Dreams in China when I knew how to relax.”